WELCOME TO LUMEN PODCAST
A lumen is the basic unit for measuring brightness. It is a measure of the total quantity of visible light emitted by a source. Lumen is a project that encompasses podcasts, blog writings, dharma talks, trainings, retreats, and workshops that integrate yoga asana, yoga philosophy, buddhist philosophy, Chinese 5-Element philosophy and diagnostic/meridian work from shiatsu, with life.
IN THIS PODCAST:
I cover the story of the 5 elements, what each element is associated with psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually, and how that relates to life. I also cover traits of each element as they are found in ourselves and the people we know. This is very storyteller style with personal experience of living the elements. Yay!
CHANGE AND COMMITMENT: GOING BEYOND GOOD ENOUGH, VALUE, WORTH, RIGHT & WRONG
IN THIS PODCAST:
- GIVING YOURSELF THE SPACE TO GO THROUGH CHANGE
- INTROVERSION & EXTROVERSION
- IT GETS SO BAD WE OPEN UP TO MAKING A CHANGE
- CLINGING TO SAFETY BUT BEING DEAD INSIDE
- INITIAL STAGES OF MAKING A CHANGE
- WHY MAKE A COMMITMENT
- THE ISSUES THAT ARISE WHEN WE COMMIT
- EMPOWERMENT VERSES DISEMPOWERMENT
- METAL ELEMENT & LETTING GO
- VICTIM-HOOD AND LETTING GO OF BEING A VICTIM
- BOUNDARIES AND EARTH
- TAKING RESPONSIBILITY
- MOVING FORWARD
- BELONGING TO OURSELVES, COMING OUT OF LONELINESS
- STEPPING INTO THE UNKNOWN, MYSTERY, AND WILDERNESS
BOOKS I READ FROM:
“Daring Greatly” by Brene Brown
“Conscious Loving” by Gay Hendricks & Kathlyn Hendricks
“Claim Your Power” by Mastin Kipp
“The Goddess Oracle” by Amy Sophia Marashinsky
“Braving the Wilderness” by Brene Brown
“Shadow Yoga” by Shandor Remete
IN THIS PODCAST:
- Water Element
- Wood Element
- Comparison & Measuring Sticks
- Monkey Experiment
- Giving Others Power
- Inner Critic
- Alignment with our Heart
- Sharing our story
- Healing is Strength / Power
- Developing Equanimity
- Abandonment & Existential Loneliness
- Inadequacy and Unavailability
- Willingness to take risk
- Opening up
This podcast covers:
- Knee Dislocation
- The ways we get stuck
- Getting clear on intention
- Working with pain
- Trusting yourself more than “experts”
- Working with Despair
- Recovery capacity greatly increases when moving forward with heart
- “Demon Voices”
- Recognizing it in ourself
- Gaining capacity to work with bigger and bigger traumas
- Letting Go
- Attachment / Aversion
- The Leg Chakras
- Taking The Leap
- Opening to Mystery
- Yoga Sutra 1.12
LIFE TAKES PRACTICE: SUTRA 1.5
THIS PODCAST COVERS:
- Sutra 1.5: vrtayah pancatayya klistaklishta
- There are 5 states of mind, some create suffering and some are born of insight and they culminate in liberation
- Definitions of each sanskrit word
- Specific feelings that tell us we are either using detrimental or liberating thought patterns
- The Five Klesas, from which all the detrimental mind states come from
- The Five Hinderances from Buddhist Philosophy
- Karma, it’s definition, generation, and it’s relationship to Klista thoughts
- What the five types of thought are
- A process from Byron Katie of learning to discriminate between detrimental thoughts and liberating thoughts
- Learning to turn the detrimental thoughts that lead to suffering into moments of insight that lead to freedom
- Shifting Patterns
- Life Takes Practice
This Track Covers:
– Getting to the Roots of Beliefs
– Shenpa, Getting Hooked and Our Ego
– “Wrong” Mind Frame
– Leaning In, Instead of Avoiding Pain
– Using Triggers as a Doorway / An Opening
– Yoga Sutra 1.4
– Understanding Yoga Philosophy on how the mind works
– Identifying as Awareness or Identifying as the Ego and Sense Data
– Using Non-Violent Communication System to identify limiting beliefs
– Critic Verses Cheerleader
– Reflecting on Mastery
– Live Life as an Experiement
A guided relaxation for learning to take yourself out of Fight or Flight and into Rest and Digest. At first, learning to pull yourself out of fear and aversion takes awhile, both with learning to relax but also with letting go of our attachment to being afraid. However, with practice, one can do this in seconds and one begins to realize all the clarity they can get from the relaxed state. This is a step in changing patterns, it just requires a willingness to be attentive to our patterns (when we should actually be afraid because we are in danger or when it is just the ego feeling threatened) and a willingness to let go of things that cause us suffering.
Its the beginning of being okay with not having control and not knowing.
This podcast is about living according to our core values and a lot of the challenges that come with that, as well as making a life out of the life we have been given.
- Core Values
- Being Fully Ourselves
- Obstacles On The Way
- Taking Risks
- Falling In Love
- Being OK With Whatever Life Gives Us
- Making Lemonade from Lemons
- Finding Treasure in the Trash
Here’s to being unprofessional, not knowing, not being the expert… letting go of assumptions, fixed views, perceptions, judgements and ideas in favor of….going on a pilgrimage!
in China, there was a teacher named Dizang who had a student named Fayan. Dizang saw Fayan all dressed in his traveling clothes, with his straw sandals and his staff, and a pack on his back, and Dizang said, “Where are you going?” Fayan answered, “Around on a pilgrimage.” Dizang said, “What is the purpose of pilgrimage?” Fayan said, “I don’t know.” Dizang said, “Not knowing is nearest.”…. translated as not knowing is most intimate…not knowing is nearest and most intimate.
Here’s to getting off the plateau of stagnancy in the known and jumping into the galaxy of darkness as vast as outer space. So much for right or wrong.
The hilarious journey of being a yoga teacher and navigating “spiritual-new-age” jargon!
A class on backbends and heart openers! All about the heart!
-Purusa and Prakriti
-Development of the Heart Chakra
-Chemical Changes from BackBending
-The Meridians in the Arms
This Track Hits On:
- Fear of Missing Out (FOMO)/ Seperate-ness
- Equanimity with desire, aversion, and neutral
- The Monarch butterfly journey
- Staying true to what’s most important within all the emotional ups and downs
The mantra: The opening invocation of the Isha Upanishad, a Sanskrit text that delves into the knowledge of the Self
Pronunciation: purnam adah purnam idam purnat purnam udachyate | purnasya purnam adaya purnam evavashishyate ||
That is Whole. This is Whole.
The Whole arises from the Whole.
Having taken the Whole from the Whole,
Only the Whole remains.
(Translation by Zoë Slatoff-Ponté)
A dharma talk about commitment and holding that gateway of hope open in the face of disappointment, failure, shame, fear, and doubt.
IN THIS TRACK:
- History of yoga
- About the first yoga sutra
- Using the philosophy to create presence with difficult emotions
- Emotional landscape
- Developing the capacity to “be with”
This Podcast Covers:
- The goals of Yoga
- The distinction between Purusa and Prakriti
- Readings from BKS Iyengar on Patanjali
- Readings from Adyashanti on letting go of our ego structure
- Sutra 1.3 on resting as awareness, as “being-ness”
- Reading from Pema Chodron on Learning to Stay
- Letting go of structures that create suffering
- The Ego Cacoon
- Getting Present
This Podcast Covers:
- Sutra 1.2: Yoga Citta Vrtti Nirodah
- The meaning of each individual sanskrit word in Sutra 1.2
- The meaning of them all together
- The definition of Yoga
- The difference between Purusa and Prakriti
- What the Citta is
- What is Suffering
- What is Acceptance
- Reading from Nisargadatta on Pain
- Reading from Adyashanti on Depth
- Learning to work with pain instead of running from it
- Learning to identify with freedom instead of the story of our pain
- Equanimity: staying present with changes
- Will, Willpower & Willingness
- What it means to apply this to our lives
- Quotes from Nelson Mandela, Freiderich Neitzche, Martha Graham, Nini Melvin, and poetry from Antonio Machado.
Intro to Backbends – Playing With Fire
- Learning to use pain as a pivot point into freedom emotionally and physically.
- Breaking Patterns of Suffering – Opening up to Freedom – How are we using our power? To create more suffering? OR are we using it in really nourishing ways? Ways that are about a life of meaning and purpose that is linked to our true nature? A LIFE OF DEEP HAPPINESS.
- Alter egos to promote freedom to say what you need to say (hehe!)
- Ego eradicator – (what’s one more humbling experience?!)
- Playing with fire (physical and emotional pros and cons)
- Developing witness, discernment, and technique for getting into body (about parasympathetic and sympathetic)
- What is a life of deep happiness for you, your nature?
- Yoga Sutra 1.34
- Breaking Patterns
- Using body as bridge – Out of ignorance into “clear perception”
- Story of Banana Tree – About the nature of the Ego
- 5 Things to watch out for – this is the game, excited for their arrival so one can do the work of re-alignment – breaking patterns
- Kindness – a poem from Naomi Shihab Nye
- A guided Relaxation
- Gayatri Mantra
In this dharma talk, I talk about receiving THIS life, living in alignment with the heart. How earth –centered, grounded, integrated — gives us ease in transition and in letting go. I talk about transitioning out of old patterns of beliefs and thoughts that put us in conflict within ourselves. The conflict causes a dissipation of energy… and about coming out of conflict and coming back to living effortlessly… passionately.
Note: Passion and desire are different than each other. Desire is based on conflict and attachment. It’s wanting something that isn’t..it is fighting with what really is. Passion is effortless because it aligns with the heart and is based on what is.
In this class we explore self-worth and value and our tendency to seek outside of ourselves for affirmation of our “goodness” or “bad-ness.” I share a story about the Buddha, the first 4 yoga sutras, a reading, some self inquiry / a practice, and some sing’in!
In this class we talk about the obstacles to:
-living aligned with truth
-connected to the heart
Class on Tuesday April 19! Inspired by Sutra 1.5
We looked at pain and our relationship to it. Then moved through our practice with kindness, the kind of kindness to oneself that comes from an understanding of impermanence, from the pain of losing the things we love, and of deep understanding and knowing that we all suffer and we share in sorrow; that is not ours alone to bear. With that understanding of suffering… the forgiveness and compassion that can shift our relationship to pain… to one with willingness and curiosity instead of judgement and the suffering that comes from resisting it.
In the end, we wrapped ourselves all up inside of blankets, tight ones with a sandbag on the thighs and an eye bag too! Deep sense withdrawal to take us inward with the softness of blankets and being all snuggled in!
“Whatever you are meant to do, do it now. The conditions are always impossible.” – Doris Lessing
In this class we talk about authority, discipline, shame and guilt… and what it’s like to just give yourself what you really want. What is possible if you stop denying yourself what you really want?
Last public class at Karoun yoga… The perfection of Asana and the discipline of practice are not done so that we may hold on better, but rather so that we may learn to let go better. The purpose of discipline is to liberate ourselves, not to rigidly and exhaustingly grip onto form, structure or belief, but to suddenly find ourselves inhabiting spontaneity and play. The lessons of discipline are in the undisciplined moments. It creates a structure for these elements to arrive. Love Liberates.
youtu.be/cbecKv2xR14 – speech from Maya Angelou – LOVE LIBERATES
In this class I talk about letting all of life in… creating the conditions for wisdom to arise.
Inspired by Sutras 1.30 – 1.32 in the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali.
“The ability to observe without evaluating is the highest form of intelligence. You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing, and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand.”
– J. Krishnamurti
In this class we talk about the Buddha’s comparison between the banana tree and the ego, comparison to others, perception of reality, and of the ego’s swings from high-and-mighty to low and fermenting. Then we move to just being mystery… meeting mystery to mystery.
In this class we explore “being,” coming from this place of wanting the life that we have. We look at the feeling of the “grass is greener” somewhere else, wanting a different life, different body, different situation, the fear of missing out, and the belief that happiness could be here if only this “______” wasn’t here. Then we explore the ideas of presence, reality, a new definition of love, and of committing to the life that we have.
More on being centered and grounded! Giving and receiving and getting enough nourishment.
In this class we talk about getting grounded! Summer 2015
In this class we talk about being grounded and centered. Getting our needs met even when it’s inconvenient for everyone else.
Late Summer 2015
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